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fairy…Tail???!!! #59

PART 59

His one hand slowly left her wrist and laced his fingers with hers, stilled pinned to the wall above her head while the other slid down to her cheeks that felt heavenly…..he moved closer almost putting all his body weight on her..her breaths ragged as sheer current coursed through her body and her fingers almost laced with his!!!!

 

His fingers traced down to her neck….outlining her shoulder and the bare waist sending chills down her spine as she hissed with that sensation….

He shuddered with the feel while she just closed her eyes tighter anticipating his next move……

 

Her fingers tightened their hold with his ..still laced with each other above her head! Her other hand held his shirt tighter over his chest as he ran his finger along the line of her sari tucked at her waist. She closed her eyes tighter fighting with her emotions….what did she want? As of now? Her brain protested while her heart just gave in! whom should she go with now?

 

He had the urge to kiss her shivering lips as his hands grazed her smooth skin over her tummy. He leaned even closer burying his head between her neck and her bare shoulder taking in her scent! He couldn’t help kiss her neck as she moved her head to the other side…..maybe it was a reflex!

 

She didn’t want that…what was happening with her? she so wanted to push him away but her energy seemed to be drained out somewhere! She just didn’t have it in her to push him away! Her thoughts came to a halt when she felt his lips against her neck. Again, she wanted him to stop but her body had a mind of its own! Even not wanting to, her head moved aside to give him more access.

 

His lips lingered there slowly drifting towards her shoulder as his hands had moved from her waist to her bare back, caressing it sensually!

She shivered with the amount of access he had on her body..NO..this is so wrong! Everything is wrong!!!

aah…Maan…

It was meant to be stern to stop him from whatever he was doing and making her feel….but it came out as a mere moan..he had tightened his hold around her waist!

 

He opened his eyes hearing her…oh man!! What was he doing? He had come for something and he is doing something which he knew was totally unacceptable to her..but what he feels for her was becoming unharnessed day by day! They are friends…that is what she thinks…but for him…it meant something more! But he didn’t want to name it as of now…..he needs to be sure of his own feelings 1st.

 

gosh…Maan Singh Khurana had never done so much for a girl….rather girls came running after him…but she was different…in every single way!

 

He lifted his head and loosened his hold on her waist and hand! She opened her eyes met with his. Dark it was and something else she couldn’t take it. Her breaths were fast and shallow with all that foreplay. He placed his hands on the wall on either side of her and his eyes didn’t flicker for a second from her face. She waited for him to move aside but he didn’t. unable to take that anxiety, she broke the prevailing silence!!!

Maan….” It came out ragged, ” mujhe…ch…change karna ..hai…

 

I need some answers first!” his authorative voice held her in place and his breath fell on her lips as he spoke making her lips shiver with that feel. She had looked down with the hot breaths tingling her lips.

why are you running away?

 

And she just flickered her gaze from the floor to his face! Did he just catch her? she was running away…yes! But from whom? Him? His closeness? Or her fears? And why? What was the need to??? ‘Cus of her naivety??? Or her past?? Or the fear of losing herself?

why are you behaving like this? Answer me geet…why are you running away from me?

 

i…am not running away from anything! Please let me go.” She averted her gaze.

then why do you look away from me? I know you feel something…and if its really nothing then why are you not able to meet my gaze?

let me go Maan..” she tried to push him away but he pinned her back to the wall again.

 

stop lying to yourself! Am not leaving until you answer! 3 months and how long will you run away or want me to hold myself back?

 

I don’t understand what what are you saying!

she didn’t look at him… she didn’t want to!!! Past 3 months and she knew how it had been with her…how much she had wished secretly and unconsciously to be near him always…but he always kept his distance!!!! And today? Why was he like this?

 

She knew if she’d look  into his eyes…she wouldn’t be able to stop herself from getting closer to him!! No!! she mustn’t!!! she has many problems of her own to deal with in the 1st place..she doesn’t want to be tied down!

He was enraged by her words. What was it that she didn’t understand? They had been together since the beginning of the session and now she says she doesn’t understand????

 

you don’t understand?” he was loud. He clutched her shoulders tight digging his fingers into her flesh n her brows flinched in pain.

NO I DON’T!!!” she pushed him away with all her force.

I don’t understand what you say or what you do…..i just don’t understand you!!! Now please let me go Maan!!!

He was shocked to hear something like that from her..to be pushed away like that!!! for the 1st time he went that close and that denial just burnt the last straw!!! Numerous times they had been close…but it had never been this intimate.

 

But saying something like that….it hurt him to no ends! He had given her as much time as possible but his patience was snapping! Though he wasn’t ready to name his feeling as of now, he knew that the attraction building up was too much to bear.

He went closer and held her tighter roaring, ” why the hell you don’t understand anything? Am I too difficult for you? Then why did you allow me to get closer anyway? Why geet…you could have slapped me or cried for help…then why the hell did you not stop me han?? You don’t fight back when I peck you in front of the people in the caf…or even in college you don’t fight back when I get into your classroom and pull you out anytime I want to!!! Answer me damn it!!!

 

She didn’t have any answers! Why is this turning out like this? But she knew she had to stay away…lest her trust is broken again…for she belongs to a very different world….way different from his!

She doesn’t want to give in…tears rolled down her cheeks as she just mumbled the words she knew not what…

please Maan…, it was more of a plead, ” mera dun ghut raha hai..lemme go..please!!!

 

Those tears….he was shattered! His closeness suffocated her…. his being around suffocated her!!!! his hands dropped down on his sides and he backed away..expressionless!! she realized what she had blurted out, “I…I…din’t mean it that way Maan…No…

He didn’t say anything. He turned around and gave her the saaree he had just brought for her which he had kept in a corner to give her later.

 

here..buy this one” his voice was calm yet there was coldness, “it will suit you!” he kept it beside her and walked out!

She stood there gazing at the door and the saaree. It was a beautiful baby pink brasso with a broad grey lacy zari border…shimmering in that bright light.

 

Tears rolled out of her eyes…ye sab kya ho gaya?? She had no mood for anything else now. She changed into her kurti and walked out holding both the saarees. As she came out Dadima came towards her!

geet…aapne kitni der laga di. Humne aapke liye kuch aur…

She stopped in her tracks..her gaze fell on the pink saaree in her hands!

arrey wah geet…where did you get this one from? Its so pretty! Why didn’t you tell earlier that you liked this one??? We wouldn’t have wasted so much time!

 

She took the saaree and both walked to the billing counter. Geet was lost in her thoughts…what has she gone and done??

Dadima payed for the bill and looked out for Maan!

geet..aapne Maan ko kahin dekha hai? He was here sometime ago!

She didn’t reply. The only thing going round and round her head was the vision of him backing away!

 

Dadima’s experienced eyes couldn’t miss that paleness on her face. But before she could ask anything she saw Maan coming towards them with some shopping bags!!!

 

Maan: ghar chalein Dadima?

Dadima: yeah..pehle hum geet ko drop karenge and then we’ll go!

Maan: umm..i don’t think she’d be riding with us!!!!

She looked at him…surprised….but he thoroughly avoided her gaze. She knew she had hurt him…but….

 

Dadima: but Maan…how will she manage alone?

Maan: that’s ok Dadima! She has some work. We wouldn’t want to force ourselves on her right? That would  suffocate her…hai na Dadima!!!

 

He didn’t even look at her. tears immediately clouded her eyes as he handed her the shopping bags. The coldness in his voice and the pain in his eyes were clearly visible. She stood there numb while the rest two made an exit!

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Later that night,

She stood in her balcony of her flat in her night dress with her hair let lose! Shimmering moon gave the much needed light as she stood holding the rails…lost in her thoughts! Gentle breeze soothed her senses as she took in a deep breath.

Geet (st): aaj meine kya kar diya?? For the 1st time I have hurt him! I just didn’t want to feel what he was trying to make me feel….why is he doing that?

Tears rolled down…shining like a pearl in that moon light.

Kyun unke kareeb jaakar mein sab bhool jati hoon? Kyun unke paas hone ke ehsaas seapne ateet ko bhula deti hoon? Mein to janti hoon na ke mujhe kya karna hain..phir kyun na chahte hue bhi unki oor kheechi chali jaati hoon? Aaj pehli dafa unki aankhon mein utbe ki jagah dard dekha….wo bhi jiski wajah mein hoon!!!

Shayad unse door rehna hi samajhdaari hai…mein in sab bematlab ehsaason ke liye nahi bani!!!

 

Her own realization killed her inside! She couldn’t stop blaming herself but somehow managed to make herself understand that she didn’t feel anything! It was just an attraction which is going to fade away with time. She shouldn’t get too much involved with him..She has things more important than him!!! But will he ever talk to her after this?

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Maan laid on his bed..twisting and turning…unable to sleep..her words ringing in his mind! Did she reach home safely? He shouldn’t have left her alone like that…but then his closeness suffocated her right? And if staying away from her would make her happy…then be it! He wouldn’t even go near her!!!

 

Maan (st): today I realized how wrong I was. She doesn’t think me beyond her friend and I just forced myself on her!!! I destroyed that little relation we had with my own hands!!!! Her tears…..they said it all..i broke her trust! How can I stoop so low? She is not going to talk to me anymore…will she?

I so much wanted her to smile…yet I ended up bringing tears to her eyes!!! Am such a dumb witted moron. Am not going to force anything on her…even my friendship…I had forced her inti this too!

 

Tears formed in his eyes! He accused himself for being such a jerk…how right she was in calling him a Jerk!!! But he had decided! He is not going to force her into anything!

 

He walked to the balcony and looked at the moon spreading its chillness!!

will you ever forgive me geet?? I’m sorry!

At the same time…

 

She looked up at the white blob..the only source of light in that dark sky…

will you forgive me Maan?? The path I am walking on is only going to hurt you! I’m sorry!

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Fairy…Tail????!!! #58

PART 58

He has to change the topic warna dadi geet ke saamne izzat ka kachda..nahi nahi!! He shouldn’t let that happen!!!

dadi…mein nahi…ye mujhse fight kar rahi thi!!!” and he pointed at geet!!!

Geet’s mouth dropped to a big O….

 

haiye rabba…itna jhoot!!” and turned to Dadima, ” Dadima..ye mujhse jhagda kar rahe the..mein nahi!!!!

Both looked at Maan angrily!!!

Maan (st): Dadima won’t leave me this easily today!!! Kahan phas gaya yaar!!!”

Ddai was smirking and making all kinds of looks to Maan!

 

geet bete..mind if I join you in your shopping? I can give you better suggestions!

Geet was delighted, “Dadima..yeh bhi koi pochne wali baat hai? Sure uyou can join…warna yeh khadoos to mujhe kuch bhi nhai khareedne denge!

She was a little bit mad at him for blaming it all on her. he shot her a glare and she looked away! Now since dadi tagged along, Maan just couldn’t open his mouth.

They were roaming around selecting dresses when Dadima insisted on getting a sari!!!  She was totally shocked..sari…NO WAYS!!! She doesn’t even know how to wear it…forget wearing..she had never been keen on saris back home!!! She hesitated but our dadi was one convincing master and she promised she’d teach her how to wear one!!!!

 

He tried to meet her gaze but she avoided thoroughly. She was mad at him! She moved along with dadi but somehow her mind went back to the little moment they had shared!!! His hold…his closeness….it was the 1st time a guy has come this close to her…for the past few months they have gotten really close….as friends…or that’s what she though. But now why does everything feels so different? She couldn’t have forgotten those eyes that seemed so unknown to her all of a sudden!!!! She was distracted by dadi’s words!

 

geet bete…how about this color? Hume to bahut achi lagi!!!”

She didn’t reply…she was staring at one place lost in her thoughts!

geet bete…geet…. You okay?

hmm…ji…ji Dadima?” she was brought back to reality!

kya baat hain geet…you seem so lost!!

umm nahi Dadima…kuch nahi!!!

then why don’t you try this?

She forwarded her an olive green chiffon sari.

 

Maan looked at them from afar….what happened to her all of a sudden? Why is she behaving so strangely? Is something bothering her?

He again tried to catch her gaze but she avoided!!! He was so not liking this. Why is she avoiding him? Did he do anything wrong? She suddenly talked very minimal and only to dadi…..not even once looking at him. He tried to recall if he had done or said something to hurt her but couldn’t gather the reason! As for him blaming her in front of dadi..he knew she wouldn’t take it seriously! Was it even a think to be thought about? It was so silly!

 

But that sudden change in her looks pricked his heart. Its like she had suddenly alienated from everything. He couldn’t have talked to him alone while dadi was around!

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Geet’s monologue: for the past so mnay days I have been fighting with myself…with this feeling…with those butterflies in my stomach…what is he doing to me? I had never been this close to any guy but then that closeness always had its effect on me!! And today again I was lost….but why? Why does he have that control over me? Why am I feeling so restrained? Something holding me back….like heavy chains tied round my feet….but most importantly….do I even want to lose myself to him?

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Dadima handed her a beautiful black net sari with silver border and silver star studded on the bpdy.

geet bete…hume ye bahut pasand aaya…aur aapko?

umm..i don’t know Dadima..aap hi bata dijiye..” she avoided his gaze, ” I have never tried one!”

Dadi put the sari on her shoulder and turned her to towards the nearby mirror on the wall! She was really awed by her beauty but geet was still hesitating..all because of her zero knowledge on saris!!!

 

She looked at herself in the mirror but all she could see was HIM…standing a few meters away behind her leaning against the wall, watching her intently! She froze at that point…her concentration shifted towards him! Even though he was far away from her…but his gaze just burned her alive and again she failed to understand what was on his mind!

geet..this one suits you the best….let’s take this one!!! You like it na??

Her gaze stopped at him when he just nodded for a No and walked away! She didn’t understand his gestures and neither her own thoughts!

 

Dadima could see that restlessness on her face but misread as her hesitation about the sari! So she pushed her into the trial room asking her to drape it around herself and see if she liked it or not!!!!

Dadima moved to other sections to check other designs!!!

 

Dadima (st): this girl is really really sweet…umm it wouldn’t be a bad idea to get her as my bahu!!! Hume to geet bahut pasand hain and Maan to waise bhi fida hain and I can see that! hope she is not like other girls Maan had dated earlier…aaj ye to kal koi aur! And about Maan..i have to make sure he is not passing time with her just like he did with his previous gfs….!!! Hey bhagwaan hume shakti dena..warna aaj kal jo bache hain na…aaj to Maan ne sirf jhoot bola hai..aur kal agar dono ne bina shaadi kiye…………chichi hum bhi kya soch rahe hain!!! Chal Savitri shubh shubh soch!!!!


In the trial room,

She sighed wondering what was happening. Why are things changing? She put the sari on her shoulder to look at herself in the mirror and she could see HIM standing a few meters away from her nodding a no!!! she turned around but found herself alone in the trial room!!!!

 

Geet (st): stop thinking geet…the more you think the more confused you are!!! Just do as Dadima says….waise bhi does he even care about you? Seedhe seedhe Dadima ke saamne mujhe blame kar diya!! Uff babajee…do something! Pata nahi nahi Dadima mere bare mein kya soch rahi hongi!!!

 

She couldn’t gather the beauty of the sari because of the complete contrast color of her salwar kameez…gosh it looked so tacky!!! For one moment she completely dropped the idea of a sari but Dadima was so hopeful! She cannot hurt her! she sighed and took off her kameez and kept it aside!

 

She was wearing a thin stripped black inner and that could serve perfectly as a blouse!!! Well she knew only this much about sari from her mother. She unfolded the sari and draped it around her waist roughly tucking it in her salwar and put the pallu on one side of her shoulders! She moved from side to side checking herself and each time she could she him nodding from behind!!!

 

Geet (st): sari achi nahi hai kya? Why is he saying no??? hey wait…what am I thinking?? I should not be thinking about him!! Never! He shouts at me for no reasons, stalks me here and there…..not that I dislike it (she made a baby face)…but its kinda embarrassing at times, and today he lied to Dadima and blamed me.. (she hits her head) why am I thinking of him again and again??

 

She shuddered with her thoughts trying to shrug off that feeling! Someone knocked the door! She wondered who was it! Maybe Dadima was calling out to try something new! She looked at herself in the mirror again…should she open the door like that with just that sari covering only one side of her upper body?? Chi chi Babaji….that was so vulgar! What will Dadima think? She just wrapped the pallu around her bare shoulder to cover the whole upper body and opened the door! She could have changed into her kameez but knocks had become louder. Dadima must me in a hurry!

 

The moment he heard the click of the door, he didn’t wait any longer for he needed to know what was going in her mind! He didn’t even if his actions were rational….he was in some kind of trance..the only thing lingering in his mind was—did she misunderstand his closeness with her and that why she was staying aloof?? He ought to know what was bothering her..was it him or something else!!!! He hated to see her staying away from everything and everyone! It took him almost 3 months to make her open up with people around her and stop running from things and people! He can’t let her slip back to that old self for he had seen her cry out loud…and that just killed him a million times inside!

 

He pushed open the door and locked it on a jiffy. And even before she could understand what happened…her eyes met his!

 

He was here…in front of her…..was her mind hallucinating again?? Her mind screamed it was just her imagination..she was going bonkers but her heart wanted to believe otherwise…wanted to confirm if he was really there!!! She raise her hand to reach him…but he was quicker for the next moment she found her back hitting the wall behind and his one hand covering her mouth as he stood inches away from her!!! her eyes widened in shock realizing that it was no longer her imagination but as real as it could get! He was close to her…real real close!!!!

 

sshhh….chilla mat geet!! I need some answers!!!” his tone was calm yest his eyes conveyed a restlessness!!!

mmm…” she rolled her eyes trying to get hold of the situation…they were alone, locked in a small trial room…with him dangerously close!!! What was happening here?? She rested her hands on his chest and tried to push him away!

 

This can’t be happening…this is so wrong..her brain kept reminding her again and again…..but her heart was so betraying her thoughts!!!! Her conscience fighing against her heart…..

He held her hands and pinned her to the wall. She struggled…no..this was so wrong!!!

 

geet…meri baat suno!!” he was stern!

Maan…yeh aap kya kar rahe hain??? Let GO of me!!!

She wriggles in his arms….struggled hard refusing to listen to him!!! And when finally his patience snapped, he held her wrists  tighter and threw her back to the wall!!!

 

A sudden chillness touched her waist and shoulder….for the pallu of the sari had slipped away revealing one side of her much bare upper body all to his view!

His movements stopped along with her breath!! Her lashes dropped down unable to meet his….embarrassment written all over her face!

 

His gaze flickered form her eyes to her slender neck…silence prevailed….to the bare shoulders…and further down to the exposed side of her chest!!!!

Was he losing it??? Given the conditions…yes he was!!! There was this sudden urge to feel her smooth skin…the atmosphere was getting hot from the heat radiating from their bodies…

 

His one hand slowly left her wrist and laced his fingers with hers, stilled pinned to the wall above her head while the other slid down to her cheeks that felt heavenly…..he moved closer almost putting all his body weight on her..her breaths ragged as sheer current coursed through her body and her fingers almost laced with his!!!!

His fingers traced down to her neck….outlining her shoulder and the bare waist sending chills down her spine as she hissed with that sensation….

He shuddered with the feel while she just closed her eyes tighter anticipating his next move…

 
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